I had this dream when I finally escaped into slumber last night where I was in a really large and virtually empty building. As I start to move around, I find out I’m in a lab and a virulent disease is in danger of escaping to the world’s populous via an insect.
I can’t see this insect though. The only thing I can really see is mostly it’s own shadow.Something always obscures my view of looking at this bug directly on.
I start tracking it down to see if I can contain it, but when I finally do end up catching it. I open the doors of the laboratory, and allow the insect to escape out into the world looking back at me. Bright blue sky, white clouds, waves of long grass in front of me.
Seems I had no care that I left whatever I did out…. I knew it was going to be bad, but it needed to be left out.
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I lost focus of this place about six years ago.. Had some good plans, but never really settled on keeping my online journaling here…. I was keeping up with Blogger before here… and then Livejournal before then, and then I had a forum based thing for a while and before that was Microsoft Word Documents…! Despite all of the online journals, I’ve still got a handwritten one that is always close at hand. It gets a little hard to sit and write long entries because of the hand cramping… (thanks carpal tunnel) but it is what it is.
I’m still kinda ticked they purged the accounts on Livejournal… I was looking forward to looking back and reading my madness from younger years…. xD
Times have changed… my mind has been made up and having my own bit of Blog-o-sphere that isn’t attached to a place that will purge my stuff if I don’t log in for more than a year…
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<.< Had an interesting day today…. It all started with me attempting to wake up and go to work after an extremely exhausting night. Fever, extreme exhaustion, body aches, and low grade migraine had me wondering if I was even going to have the energy to somehow force my body out of bed and make it all the way down to work… allowed me to maybe get 5 hours of sleep in the end? I woke up even more exhausted and tired, BUT I was able to get out of bed! That was the important part! 😀 Ended up getting to work and realizing that I was a week early for my scheduled shift and ended up leaving a LOT earlier than originally planned– WHICH worked out… because I wasn’t feeling so hot anyway. That wasn’t the only thing I noticed. When I glanced to see what time it was on my wrist (I feel I have to point this out because this is 2017 and not too many people wear wrist watches anymore. I think I’m the last of a dying breed…) I realized that my analog watch had stopped at 3:23. Which meant, it had to have stopped at 3:23am, while I was knocked out. I grumble as I attempt to set the correct time and see if maybe the pin just slipped. Nope. Now I gotta replace the battery… Yay. (Could you tell that was supposed to be sarcastic??) If anything I figured I could maybe take a nap before I was supposed to attempt to see my buddy, Will. I’ve known Will for years…. (Something like.. 8 years now, I think??) But let me tell ya– Will is AWESOME. And also wants to be known as ‘Uncle Will’. Even though on my end– the ‘Uncle’ part is just basically non-existent– he also is not my uncle and I’m older than he is BUT Let me paint a picture of Will for you…! 6 foot tall, late 20s American Black dude who games and likes a bunch of nerdy stuff, has a GREAT sense of humor, has my back AND has a great sense of watching anime! His specialty? Naruto. 😀 ALL of those reasons?? Are why we are friends! Awesome reasons! I haven’t seen the guy in MONTHS considering this whole low energy-exhuastion thing has been taking me out left and right and I didn’t want to have to cancel AGAIN because my body is malfunctioning. x__X When I get out of the car I go to greet my friend and hear a clatter. My watch slipped off my wrist, the band snaps, and hits the pavement, cracking the glass MORE than it was originally cracked. I grumble as it’s handed back to me. “Time for a new watch, I guess.” My awesome Flash watch had a good ‘RUN.’ Heehee. Get it?? RUN. The Flash….? xD We had a good time over the next hour or so, catching up and watching some Barruto Chronicles. So when we left to go run an errand, and I’m sitting in the waiting room of this office building an EXTREMELY LOUD door alarm buzzer goes off and it completely SHATTERS my world. My ears are SCREAMING. It basically feels like someone took a javelin and decided to launch it and have it go right through both ear canals with an explosion of heated, FIREY pain erupting through. I cringe and wince. Make a face. But all I hear is ringing. DEAFING ringing that was making my brain start to hurt. The pain was so bad, that I sat there in shock. Completely terrified of what it might do if it would sound off once more. At this rate, Will– erm… “Uncle Will” had noticed that I had been stricken by something and I wasn’t having a good reaction. I’ve had light sensitivity bother me in the past, but this is the first EXTREME encounter I’ve had with SOUND. (Zomg!) I started freaking out inside and muttered to “Uncle Will” that we probably needed to go. (I think I will keep the quotes around “Uncle Will” until I ultimately get lazy and start referring him back as Will. Heh…!) So when we did, I started shuffling along and trying to walk and make it back to the car. (All of which only took forever… because me walking with no energy, plus extreme head and ear pain now because of the STUPIDLY LOUD–Very triggering– door alarm– means I’m not going anywhere fast. As we make strides into the parkinglot, everything got kind of hazy for a moment, but managed to come back to focus…When I was finally able to sit in the car, my body completely just lost ALL energy. My arms went limp, legs were dead and a wave of numbing pain swept over my body. “The stillness” is what I should call it. Though it seems ominous if I do… >.>
It came on during the bought of lost energy . My body went limp and wouldn’t move or work… or do anything. Kind of like one of those wind up dolls who eventually looses steam because the key on it’s back needs to be wound with kinetic energy again? JUST like that. ‘The Stillness’ lasted for a good moment and eventually allowed me in a state of lower energy afterward.
This was the first time Will had seen me in in a state of…. THIS. A non-lively state?? ME?? Strangely weird… The look of shock and concern seemed to be on his face. I felt really bad about us having to duck out of building as we did. Especially with the way that explosion of pain was triggered. I know my body probably twitched in weird ways… That with my body movements in reaction to the Earth shattering pain in my skull made it seem like I was a crazy person freaking out about a stupidly loud door bell.
I sigh. Life had to go on. I apologized for the weakness…
“It’s all good.” he assured me. “Don’t worry about it. We can come back another time.”
I still feel bad… >.<
I gave it a few more minutes and headed back to drop Will back off and returning home myself.
At least I managed to get a fresh cut wintergreen wreath earlier today.
Full moon, eh? Weird.
Honestly– pretty sure it WAS NOT connected to the Full Moon in anyway. Not trying to aggravate a bought of “Full Moon Fever” or anything buuuuuut–Strange bit eh?
Binary Momentum 